try ngee-ing the alphabet.

Sunday, December 31, 2006

Curtain closes...

Wonderful memories.. Time flies indeed. While reading through my reflections, the events that had happened, the milestones of the year 2006 still look so new and fresh in my mind. There are certainly many events ( within orchestra ) alone to remember. For me, Founder's Day - the first ever performance of the year, and i blew it by coming in 2 whole beats earlier. How unforgettable =P Then there was HAVEN and phil concert, the weeks of sweat, joy, laughter and sadness which turned out to be the best concert we had for quite some time. UK tour was too a blast where you see the younger players interacting so much with the oldies (i did not bother to talk to my seniors when i was year 1). It was the first time Seng Tiong enjoyed orchestra too! And my appointment. What a way to wrap up 2006 for the orchestra.

For school, Kluang trip in January - all the muddy games and waterbombs, with a war at the last day that invloved lots of blood shed ( real blood). Physics was the worst subject until i decided to use 3 whole weeks and it turned out to be a very rewarding experience. There was the carrom board that hooked our whole class to it. Dr Lee Li Eng speaker of the year award will be the most unforgettable thing in school, definitely. Chinese general knoledge quiz too, where we won by 200 points. Apart from these things, I will definitely miss my class, famous for our carrom, chinese and music.

Outside of school, theres Mr Zhang who i started to learn under him and then everything in my world seems to revolve around violin. Well he is one superb teacher then sort of "changed" alot of things in my life. And Malaysia trip at the end of the year with family members. There was the uni students too, and the inter-hall games too.

And the biggest topic, about friends. Well i know i dont really treasure them before this year. Until the start of this year.. i dont know why. The sponsorship excursion in June was the major turning point, and it was sometime then that i got hooked onto orchestra too. We went for a lot of concerts, went out together very frequently too. Thanks for everything...

So as the year comes to and end, special thanks goes out to firstly Chris for all the guidance etc, its really much appreciated. Then to oli ame and shua, haha a big thank you too. To zab and bryan, thanks for your "lessons" on close to everything, and i really enjoy having rehearsals with you all beside me, the drawings, random noises etc. To John Foo, haha, thanks. Really miss walking around with you in the morning to patrol and talk about anything. Then to the rest of 4.12, take care.. We are going to be year 5's next year le.. Come back for a few carrom games =P To the orchestra, thanks for your support and im looking forward in working for you all next year. Actually it has already started, a big thank you for making rehersals so enjoyable. Especially wilford and sengtiong, and lately LKM, joshua tan jing yan and poh (im sorry if i miss out your name). Then to Ian Lim Wei, haha you have the same birthday as me, so lets see who gets more present next year.. jk.. And then to some of the mg string players, you know who you are, thanks for everything ( that includes you Deborah Lin). And finally thanks to hoeyeong, ainsley and gw!

Sounds like star awards.. jk.

What i want next year: To do well both academically and cca wise. To make more friends (deborah watch out), to win in inter-hall carrom (whatever =P). To practise much harder for my violin, to be closer to my family and God, and to do all things for Him.

I want to thanks my director for giving me so many oppurtunities, my papa, mama, meimei, kor kor, auntie, ahma, uncle... =P


at the end of the year.

Saturday, December 30, 2006


You can read more about my exciting life at

Okay, i actually have been using that since i came back from Malaysia. I will still be blogging here though, and I'm not "abandoning" this group of people, afterall they are the ones who got me to who i am today.. So for those friends out there, i hope that you will respect my decision. I have actually been thinking for quite long le.

Enjoy church tomorrow

Thursday, December 28, 2006

Today was fun.

Thanks guys... especially debby meimei and chris! hmm

now its time to get right with God.

His grace astounds me.


It's been raining and raining and raining and raining, and i can't emphasise that point more. Now i really miss those days when the sky was cloudless and the sun was shining mercilessly. I miss the warmth and the cheerfulness that came along with the sun. I even miss feeling too warm under the sun.

But now the sun hides mercilessly; just like it shone mercilessly through the summer days.

What does the rain make me think about? Well, first of all, it makes me feel kinda cold, physically. It makes my heart a little stone too, but i'm used to it now. Then the rain makes me think of blues chords and songs; of flattened sixths and dominant ninths. Of a lazy, slow, and one-of-a-kind Afro-american voice in the background. These are the things that are in my mind when i see the streaks of rain on the car window. I also imagine being back in a temperate country, enjoying winter in a cafe as I cuddle up in my soft sweater, scarf and boots. I imagine watching a performer serenade me into the depths of the cold night, with his soothing voice and guitar...and of course, he's playing the blues. That's what the rain makes me think about. My own comfort zone, my own lonely, individual space.

But i must put that aside soon, because this is what i resolve: next year should be more about others, and less about ourselves.

Monday, December 25, 2006

beary nice Christmas

Sunday, December 24, 2006


have yourself a merry little Christmas!

remember the most important person's birth!


Saturday, December 23, 2006

Of bell(e)s, food, and wine

I was at my mum's ward party today. And all of you who know me, well, you know where my mum works. She works in this gastronomical place, but it's not what you think it is - its FAR from what you think it is.

The door said: Colecteral and liver centre, MEH endoscopy centre.

Very gastronomical indeed!

It's quite strange to see nurses and doctors who deal with the not-so-glamourous parts of your insides feasting on turkey and drinking wine. I even find it hard to visualise them eating. I mean, how could they do so, after looking at intestines for a whole day?

Oh well, i guess you do get used to it.

I can conclude that my mum has a very insane team of workers. They're fabulously funny people - they greeted every doctor that came by yelling Jingle Bells, took scandalous photos and danced in front of the security camera. Better still, they got the unusually sane doctors to join in the insanity too. So all of you who have doctors for a mum or dad, watch out!! They may seem like the most logical people around, but you don't know for sure! ;)

Though I've never worked with them before, their joy was very infectious, and i joined in the wine. But not the song though; I didn't think i drank enough wine to go that crazy. Anyway, i think i drank one disposible-plastic-cup full of wine x.x And i finally know how to appreciate it. I tried swirling the wine in my mouth, and surprisingly, the bitter taste was separated from the sweet savour that wine experts harp about. Finally, wine tasted sweet to me.

It was a nice two hours of fine dining, wine, song, cameras, videos, and presents.

I feel like writing a christmas song. Till then!


it was a pleasant surprise, even though the meeting was planned. the familiar faces, faces which haven't changed much, faces which hid feelings. a tired smile emerged on his weary face, as he approached the group. they look unchanged, beautiful, just the way he remembered them.

he still felt pretty awkward, and conversation eluded him. it was as though he was mute. when he finally spoke, trying to contribute to a joke, he did something he didn't realize was insensitive. before it dawned upon him, those words had already been spoken, names had already been mentioned. there was, unfortunately no turning back. what appeared to be seemingly harmless, laughable banter affected someone in the company.

the words took effect almost instantaneously. the look upon her eyes spelt heartache and pain. her tear glands threatened to work, just as she took control of her feelings, and concealed the subtle physical reflection of her emotions. unbeknownst to the rest, she was well aware of her emotional nature, and he knew. he could emphatise with her, for he had gone through similar pains. he wanted to hold her, and to tell her it was alright. it will be, but for now, its a phase that she has to endure. something that will pass, eventually. he heaved a sigh of resignment, knowing full well that there's nothing that he can do to improve the situation. the mistake has already been made.

and life goes on.

Friday, December 22, 2006


Ame just came back, and im leaving..

And many parts of malaysia is flooded, but im still going. Spending Christmas there, so wish all of you merry christmas first..

School reopening so soon, but i feel that im the only person looking forward to it. Lots and lots of things to look forward to..

Should sleep now =P See all of you on the 26th..


Have yourself a merry little Christmas,
Let your heart be light
From now on,
our troubles will be out of sight

Have yourself a merry little Christmas,
Make the Yule-tide gay,
From now on,
our troubles will be miles away.
Here we are as in olden days,
Happy golden days of yore.
Faithful friends who are dear to us
Gather near to us once more.

Through the years
We all will be together,
If the Fates allow
Hang a shining star upon the highest bough.
And have yourself
A merry little Christmas now.

Sigh :)

port dickson, malaysia

The best day of my little three-day holiday was the second day. So i'll write just about that.

The rain finally cleared on wednesday afternoon! So we could finally go down to the beach to play. It's nice having a really little brother when u wanna be a child all over again; because they'll just drag you down to the shore to chase the waves, pick rocks and build sandcastles. We raced along the beach, dashing across the sand while trying to avoid the rocks and the people at the same time. I landed up doing a cartwheel to let him catch up. Then it was off the the rock pools to look for crabs and a game of frisbee. For once, the weather was great, and I was happy.

After a shower, I laid on my bed, deliberately facing the balcony door because it faced the sea. I loved the view so much; I still can picture it in my head. There was no end to the sea; it was hard to believe it was the straits of malacca. At the end of what i could see, the sea just disappeared, as if there was a huge cliff beyond. The waters were calm, and the clouds veiled most of the sunset, leaving only a slit for the sunlight to stream through. But even that was beautiful. I was on the ninth floor, with the sea and sky next to me, and a comfy bed under me. I felt God then. It was great; I can't describe it. I wished i could share it with you all...

There's a rainy day activity that you guys should pick up. It's scrabble and cluedo! I didn't realise how fun they were until i was cooped up at a BEACH resort cos of RAIN. Right now, my mum's thrashing all of us at scrabble and as for cluedo, she's clueless! And according to them, i'm the biggest crook. Unexpected? haha. You'll never know for sure. But the game is fun, it's a little like bluff. I think i'm addicted.

Oh well. I've enjoyed my share of sun sand and sea now. Happy christmas, everyone.

Thursday, December 21, 2006


finally packed my room. so much neater now. hope i didnt throw away stuff i need next year lol. threw away lots of paper. stuff.

oh well. christmas is literally round the corner. i say here that i'll probably spend my christmas day doing work, but then again knowing me i think i probably wont do anything, since its christmas day anyway. ha.

ho ho ho and a merry christmas in advance to all!

Class chalet

Back from class chalet. Lethargy

Played and played and played for close to 2 whole days, no sleep! Went changi SAFRA resort which was super far in my opinion. Boon lay to Tanah Merah, from one end of Singapore to the other. Well we got the seaview chalet, a lot of times bigger than the previous one. At least it can fit all of us in it, comfortably..

Played super lot of playstation. and some people were just addicted to mahjong. Didnt really have water and food, and the air-con is VERY powerful. So its hungry and freezing ( oo it was raining btw), then came the highlight of the whole event - Scary Movie!

Watched "Saw", turned off the lights then lined ourselves up and watch it together. Its a super cool movie, very nice plot. NC16 but all of us are above 16, so nvm. Its a story about some physo patient ( who has the nickname of tricycle-man by me since he rides on one) who kidnaps people that doesnt treasure their life and lock them in a place alone. The only way they can escape is through solving the puzzle he gave to them. But most of them died ( you wont want to know how ). The only person who survived stabbed another person's stomach to retrieve a key to unlock a device that rips open her jaws after the timer reaches 0, and she did. So its a plot on how 2 men who got locked up in the same room tries to escape from it. They failed in the end though, but the ending was interesting too. The scary part of it is actually everything. haha, not recommended for those who cant tahan blood, shocks etc. Not all of my friends watch it too, some didnt dare. Then I keep scaring them by saying im afraid you will see the mask of the tricycle man on the window when you are bathing later =P

You can watch it if you like, im certainly interested in viewing saw2. I still cant find a horror movie that freaks me out at night.. We played pool and arcade too.. Too bad there was no carrom board.

Its really a nice class, apart from those that never participated in any class activity before. We sort of expected who will turn up and who wont. Apart from that, i will definitely miss 3.12/4.12
I got the new television today, and the 2 cameras as well. Now i have a super cool furniture in the living room, and its so big. The cameras are nice to play with too. Set it to 10.1 megapixels and each picture taken has a size of 4.3megabytes 0.0 Very clear though, and its anti shake+multi focus.. Yay. Going to bring it to Malaysia and spam =P

new phone! quite exciting. i've never had a phone with a camera and a mediaplayer (yes i know i'm outdated) haha...

anyway, i've been exploring the world of bruckner! beautiful stuff, with loads of viola melodies. long, simply written symphonies. i especially like his harmony and tonality. things happen when you dont expect them to.

rawr. leaving for phuket on fri. will be back on monday, which is christmas

anyway here is the logo with all 3 clefs, posted on behalf of the current chamber comm.

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

More logos

Better? And it comes in variations. hehe, so choose one clef now. I dont think think we can have all.

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Woohoo bar

So it rains and rains and rains. And it better stop tonight or it will just destroy the class chalet, grr. It has never been this cold ever since we came back from UK, and its flooding everywhere! SBS bus air-con double decker has became a swimming pool with water fountain at the steps. The drainage system for my jungle is quite lousy too, its not puddles of water, its like a sea...

Watched open season today, agrees with you all that is actually quite funny. Quite impressive actually for an animated film, bad its quite short. Cant expect the film to be long too, but its much better than happy feet, with the same effect of conveying a message through a film. Thumbs up for open season =P

Went to eat sushi too, and tried out yamaha's $145.01 violin. Quite squeeky, overly bright, and theres something wrong with the bridge, not curved properly.. Did some shopping too.
Tchaikovsky violin concerto is my favourite out of everything, especially the first movement. Had been listening extensively to violin concertos for the past few days. True enough, the nicer ones are also the harder ones. Brahms and sibelius...
We bought a 32inch LCD TV, samsung, and it comes with 2 ( TWO) x 10.1 megapixel camera...FunkeY. I think its a good price as well, very good in my opinion. The whole world is dumping LCD tvs now, HDTV is taking over! LCD is good enough for me le, though i still prefer my old one, 16 years old, finally died. The other tv also 16 years old, but repaired once and its still surviving. New refrigerator, new tv, whats next =P


People just comment on this logo, ugly nice noob cool stylish lousy whatever..
But please dont say lousy and nothing else cus we are trying to improve on it. haha
Imagine it everywhere, on your case, programme booklet, on the door of MC ( if you are wondering what it will be used for ), how will you feel about it. hehe...

Its rather simple, but we wont want it too complicated too..
Commence the Commenting.. (does it make sense)

Xmas is early...

That's us yesterday, probably one of my best dinner with friends this year =P
From left to right: Number 5, number 2, number 007 ( call me bond), number 3 and the boss, number 1!
Not in picture, number 4 (expected lar this one). chris had two terms, which means 5-6, but counted as number 5 only. haha. like 2 gold medals the third guy will get a bronze, no silver =P
Thus im 007, the agent who doesnt die =P
Ho ho ho ho ho ho ho, 5 major plans for the holidays, and we completed 3 today! Now who's saying optimistic but unrealistic! Poh's house quite big, but as usual, no reception ( dumb M1). And he's dog is super uber cute ( oops ame, but you must see.. ) 4 months old, but sadly it isnt toilet trained, otherwise it shall be in poh's room. hehe. i have a picture of her! quite small IMO.
And i just realised i might be allergic to squid! I cant believe it actually, but i sort of get rashes after eating them. Rahhh! Im going to try again tomorrow night, and if theres rashes again ah, im going to kill the squids! For what i have no idea also, zzz, no squid leh, cannot imagine. Old Chang Kee sells uber nice fried squid, and i buy them everytime im on my way home, at jurong point there..

The rain is quite mad, whole singapore leh for so long. Went to popular, raining, came back from popular, raining, went for dinner ( and back ) raining, at home, raining. SIAO! My umbrella has failed me so miserably, all the works to and out of Poh's house nearly drowned me. I can squeeze water out of my shirt ( and of course my pants ) after we returned from dinner. And its still raining now, why cant it be snow ah. Then can have early christmas =P

Monday, December 18, 2006


i attempted to start on my EE today, with little results.

was supposed to meet up with oli, but rained heavily the whole day, and i ended up out of the house, also because i realized i had to obtain more material for EE. so off i went, a little down and out since i made almost no progress on EE. i went singing in the rain. not really, i actually had an umbrella. passed aug his books, and since i was in the vicinity, dropped by bras basah to look at guitars. basses to be precise. really wanted to get one that i had an eye on, an ibanez SR590 going at around $500. but leider nicht, no moolah. just looking at the instruments gave a surreal sense of satisfaction. maybe i'll save up so that i can get one at the end of next year. maybe that'll do. yes.

oh and i helped a mum hold on to a little boy's hand on the escalator as she pushed her pram with a younger kid up. the little boy kept poking the escalator glass haha.

i went on trudging in the watery grounds of town, all the way to the esplanade, through the driest route possible. there i gave directions to this couple with a baby to the esplanade entrance where the bus stop was. they were at the box office. at the library, walked around, got the books i needed, zapped some relevant stuff from reference books, and placed a reservation for some really old publishing at the repository used book collection at the service counter. after that it was off to national library, backtracking, to meet cheryl. when i walked out the frustration of EE subsided, maybe because of the fact that i found materials. but somehow i still think i felt better because of my contact with music throughout the outing, from swee lee looking at basses till esplanade library, and when i walked past maestro the guitar shop at the esplanade mall, and frank brothers. i used to look in to check if they stocked up on their cellos and cello cases. hahaha. ooh there's also a sweet silver bam! case that costs 2.35k. i like.

the rain kept up its relentless pitter patter. thank God i have an umbrella. reached the national library, felt the cold air conditioning surge through me, reached the borrowing library. cheryl was looking at german books, and i found this teach yourself book, instant german, and was absorbed for an hour going through the first lesson. haha. its very interesting. not very different from english, but variations here and there, sentence structure a little weird sometimes, but, i ended up borrowing the book. we met auggie for dinner at the food court at bugis after his class. had a good time just chatting. and eating, of course. if you two are reading this, thanks for the company.

well, guess i should be turning in soon. cannot waste anymore time. irony strikes again. here i am blogging my time away while there are a 101 more productive things i can do. BUT. i like reflecting on the day. ha. tomorrow will be a productive day. i shall try to finish the color purple before i sleep. its a sad book. the characters, i mean. oh well. still in the middle of huck finn.

i should learn to spend time with more wisdom. heh.


And she was upstage, dancing to the flowing music, her posture illuminated by the makeshift fluorescent lighting. Her make-up shone lightly, enhancing her facial features, particularly those gentle eyes. Her unrivalled beauty paralleled her talent. Each step boasted of her elegance and her inherent ability to make every move with delicate grace. She was exceptional among her peers, her talent clearly presented to the audience. She became the dance, was one with it, executed the actions with skill and finesse, displayed professionalism and perfection of the highest degree. The mastery of her craft was an accomplishment indeed. She sought neither fame nor attention, but to give the glory to God in her art, never failing to amaze.

a beautiful song has been in my head for a while now.

At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was shed for me
There's no greater love than this

You have overcome the grave
Your glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now

You tore the veil
You made a way
When You said that it is done


unconditional, everlasting love. that is God's love.


They were in the skytrain. It was raining outside; the glass windows were streaked with curving lines of rain that looked like meandering rivers. The sky was a plain grey - you couldn't tell the clouds and the sky apart. They were all uniform; they all gave a cold, indifferent look. But it was warm in the skytrain.
It was fairly crowded as it was the morning rush hour to catch the first planes before they fly off. People with preoccupied faces whizzed past them. But there they stood, also preoccupied. With each other's eyes.
He was leaving; the skytrain headed ever so quickly to the second terminal. They were just talking as one talks to an acquaintance - merely small talk. He cracked a joke and attempted to relieve the tension that existed between all that was left unsaid. It worked for awhile; she playfully stretched out her hand to hit him. Their hands touched, and lingered. They both couldn't let go.
He saw the longing in her eyes. She longed for a last goodbye. And she saw it in him too. That look of struggle, restraint, sadness, longing. It was all too familiar. He decided this would be his last chance. He put his arm over her shoulder and drew her near. She relented - there were tears in her eyes, as she leaned against him. There wasn't any need for words. They understood. The road ahead was going to be hard for them.
And so they stood, preoccupied, as the skytrain whizzed back and forth between the two terminals.


Now, be honest. How many of you, having read this, have squirmed and dismissed this as something foolish, mushy and stupid altogether? Well, just because you felt uneasy reading it doesn't mean its stupid. I bet at a certain point of our lives, this will happen to us. And try tracing where that uneasiness comes from. It comes from the fear of facing your emotions; the fear of being subjected to it. It isn't a very rosy picture, to know that you're afraid of yourself.
We humans are strange creatures.
The things we do to run away, the things we do to forget.
I won't do it; I'll remember even if you don't.

hahaha! don't worry thats not some loanshark threat. LoL.

Sunday, December 17, 2006


So highlight of the day, dinner.
Went with Hoe yeong, Ainsley, Guang Wei and chris ( figure out for yourself who these people are ). Haha, its very nice, besides chris =P Asked me to wait at city hall mrt saying they are walking over, i double-checked with him and he confirmed that he's coming so we wait at city hall mrt, then he rang me again and asked me where was I...
And they treated me to mudpie + ice cream, so kind. Interesting conversations as well, as they digged up on their past. Feel so young when theres some 21 years old guy there. He's number 1. Im number 007 ( call me bond ), number 4 and 13 will dao the orchestra, wonder who number 13 will be. hehe.
Anyway, i got a photo of my mudpie and da ice cream. haha. and the chocolate smell was really great. Anyone drooling now?

To quote mrs li about all my proposals, " Optimistic but unrealistic". She thinks that i have too many ideas but i cant get anything done by December. Well people reading this, im so going to proof her wrong! Okay whatever, hopefully. I dont think im too ambitious bah. hehe. But i got blessings from the elders already, and they have officially retired. But the size of the shoes i have to fill is the same size as theirs! Chan always say " you have big shoes to fill ", but not " you have bigger shoes to fill" which means different things.. JK. Im out of my mind liao =P
Want to go back to USA now, nice memories. And zhiway smsed me when she boarded the plane. Trying to make me jealous only. I got Malaysia trip okay!

Class chalet on wed and thurs, meeting poh and yinghao tomorrow for chamber stuff ( refer to above), actually theres nothing to refer to.. Tuesday having fun, and sat hello malaysia. Busy week ahead, no time for msn. Till then, bb..

Friday, December 15, 2006

And more carrom...

So day 2 of the competitions just ended, and team singapore was very happy with their results.

I think my striker was tired too, but i drew a smiley face on top of it, so when i shoot theres a smiley face everywhere =P

Results: ( for sets) - one set has 5 matches and 1 match has 5 games...
Win: 2
Loss: 2

I was defeated right at the start, super off-form and was nearly dropped from the team. Haha. Well we got pwned by hall 6 4-1 and they were expecting us to win our match ( aiyah actually they expect me to win everything de ) So sorry, but i didnt know what happen also. No luck maybe, but i was seriously very NoOb.

Then second and third game was normal, i think they chased away the evil spirit inside me after the scolding ( not really scolding, just that i think they were quite upset). I won both games 5-0 =) Last game was against hall 3, the ultimate hall who didnt suffer any defeats at all right from the start, and the male double pair didnt lose a single game at all.

But i made them pee in their pants after getting 2 straight wins from the start. My partner, the same one as yesterday, ended the game for the first time. He said it was luck, but i believe there were some skills involved. Then they got stunned, but decide to continue instead of going for a break. Then history nearly repeated itself, but i ended game this time and they called for time-out. I think they went to the toilet to change their pampers and came back fresh. Haha. Then lose a game, drew one and lose again. So overall score was a tie for my match. Im still happy with that results.

Overall our hall ranked 4th on the table, i got first for most number of seeds converted ( which means scored ). Won a carrom board. Haha.

Well this game was quite an eye-opener for me, though we didnt get a medal, but its okay. Next year the team will still be the same so we must improve. In the mean time, all the hall 3 players will be graduating =P Our carrom captain won all male's single matches, powerful!

For those that asked why i need to go for training, read this.
There is no communication when the game is being played, and you cant tell your partner what to hit. ( But so many people swear after missing and they didnt care) So you must know the right tactics, of how to defence or how to set up for your partner to defence. One wrong move and the game might be lost, and it happened around 5 times throughout the whole competition. So actually its not a brainless game, but relatively brainless.
* I got foul points for smsing deborah in the first few games yesterday!! *

Carrom is over, chinese chess up next...

The Eating Test

Here is the analysis:You are generally a calm person. You get excited when your favorite band is in town, when you are going on a date with your partner or when you and your friends are dancing. Your friends mean everything to you. You hate it when the summer is over.
You like art, and some poetry. You can throw a party, or help a friend put one together. You usually have no trouble finding dates, but you occasionally hit a dry spell. You like the outdoors, usually, and rainy weather doesn't bother you. You sometimes get jealous of people who are smarter or better looking than you, but you wouldn't hold it against them if you got to know them. You are on good terms with your parents, even though they annoy you once in a while. People tend to think you are reliable and trustworthy. You like animals.

Carrom marathon

I finally under stand the meaning of tired today.. But im still going to blog about today, cus its super fun, really.

Well, look at the time, i just reached home btw, and the game started at 9 this morning. 15 hours ( if i count correctly, dead tired liao)

One set has 5 matches, men/women's single, men/women's double and mix doubles, and each match has 5 games. Get it? I played 25 games in all today. It is held simultaneously, so you actually have super lot of games going on at one time and the atmosphere is really great especially when we started at the same time. Just that its super cold. haha. Played men's double btw.

Match stats:
Played against 5 other halls, so 25 games in all.
Win: 4 ( for sets)
Loss: 1

For me, I lost the match twice, first time losing by 3-2 and second time losing by 5-0
And won it three times, all 5 - 0

Number of seeds shot in (by me) - 124 seeds
* This is my happiest stats, top of the table, yay. Thats about 90% of the seeds btw, cus my partner just started learning 4 days ago, and i was supposed to train him.
Number of end games - 19
* Thats all the games that we won btw. Haha. Well, my partner depended on me too. And check out below for the last game ( we only won 18 games if you count properly)
Number of opponent seeds shot in ( by me ) - 24
* Some are really crappy, others are accident. And one of them, the second last game, i helped them score their last one and ended the game. ZZZ

25 games in all is super uber ultimate tiring. Go and try for yourself. Competition style carrom, with all the pressure, especially when i lost my second match and was praying so hard that the 4 other matches will be fine.

The last game was ultimate crap i must tell you. The match started at 10.30 and we were all super tired, and you can tell that all our aimings are WOW. All the ultimate misses, and not forgetting shooting in the wrong colour cus cant think properly liao. So we lost the last set 25 games to ZERO. haha, then it was the walk back to my hall. At least we were relieved that we can rest.

Men's single is ultimate ownage, all the games are within 7 mins ( well max time for each game is 35, after which the seeds left will be counted, so there are posibilites that there will be a draw). And all of them are like sniper shooters, thus they decide not to place me there. Haha, cus confirm lose de. And the chief judge is from singapore national carrom team ( never hear of it before, seriously). He was sort of practising during the break, one power sniper...

So thats is for today at the games, proudly brought to you by samsung and qatar airways =P
We havent even play hall 3 yet, they won every set 25 - 0 =.=
We are currently 3rd on the table, but my name for most number of seeds for my category is still first. Wee, carrom phobia after tomorrow i bet.

So now, rest my fingers and mind who have served me well today. I got the carrom captain as partner tomorrow! Bye...

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

i attempted to walk home again today. failed miserably though... too sian. Started at plaza sing, walked to selegie and boon keng area, serangoon road, and got lost. then found my way to kallang bahru and got lost again. i saw the KJE and thought it was the PIE so i turned and walked the wrong way. In the end i found my way to Aljunied and took the train home.

anyway, Sibelius symphonies are really effective things in concert halls. often neglected though...


just finished eldest. rocked.

cant wait for the third book in the inheritance trilogy.

now back to huck finn and el a1 books.



was quite disappointing.

the director/producers decided to change the storyline, probably to cut short the runtime. heh. HarryPotter and LOTR are better reproductions of the books i reckon. oh well.

now to finish eldest.

Carrom frenzy

I still cant believe they banned me from playing inter-hall games a few years back.
Competition tomorrow, yay, cant wait. There's still my super cool stiker thats of multi colour.

But i played 44 games yesterday, 23 this morning.
Wins - 52
Loss - 15
Best winning streak - 14

To those in my class, the board we are using is similar to kenneth's one and not mine. Its very tiring to play so many games de, and playing until 1 am is another thing. Resting now though, going down again later. NO VIOLIN!

Men's single and men's double, not aiming for a medal though. Just for fun only.
My brother is taking part in contract bridge and scrabble, for the smart people. Carrom is for those with itchy fingers. =P
And i changed my handphone plan le. Still feel that M1 is NoOb, but no choice.
1000 free sms, free incoming and Free campus call ( haha bet you all never hear before, that means all the calls out from NTU is free! ) but no caller ID, sigh.
But it isnt too expensive bah, i need to call a lot of people next year, and sms too.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

the brick.

A young and successful executive was traveling down a neighborhood street, going a bit too fast in his new Jaguar. He was watching for kids darting out from between parked cars and slowed down when he thought he saw something.

As his car passed, no children appeared. Instead, a brick smashed into the Jag's side door! He slammed on the brakes and backed the Jag back to the spot where the brick had been thrown.

The angry driver then jumped out of the car, grabbed the nearest kid and pushed him up against a parked car shouting,

"What was that all about and who are you? Just what the heck are you doing? That's a new car and that brick you threw is going to cost a lot of money. Why did you do it?"

The young boy was apologetic. "Please, mister...please, I'm sorry but I didn't know what else to do," He pleaded. "I threw the brick because no one else would stop..."

With tears dripping down his face and off his chin, the youth pointed to a spot just around a parked car. "It's my brother, "he said "He rolled off the curb and fell out of his wheelchair and I can't lift him up."
Now sobbing, the boy asked the stunned executive, "Would you please help me get him back into his wheelchair? He's hurt and he's too heavy for me."

Moved beyond words, the driver tried to swallow the rapidly swelling lump in his throat. He hurriedly lifted the handicapped boy back into the wheelchair, then took out a linen handkerchief and dabbed at the fresh scrapes and cuts. A quick look told him everything was going to be okay. "Thank you and may God bless you," the grateful child told the stranger.

Too shook up for words, the man simply watched the boy! push his wheelchair-bound brother down the sidewalk toward their home.

It was a long, slow walk back to the Jaguar. The damage was very noticeable, but the driver never bothered to repair the dented side door. He kept the dent there to remind him of this message: "Don't go through life so fast that someone has to throw a brick at you to get your attention!"

God whispers in our souls and speaks to our hearts. Sometimes when we don't have time to listen, He has to throw a brick at us. It's our choice to listen or not.


Can you imagine having a dream within a dream, existing in a dream where you constantly ask urself that this cant be real but all u can say is "yes it is"? And then you wake up and u only figure out that its a dream an hour later?

What does it all mean?

Maybe it doesn't. Sadly, it doesn't; because i long for it. To be.

It has invaded my mind, conscious and subconscious. It was in my mind when i saw the planes fly yesterday, and i cant say that it wasn't on my mind today.

Ahh. God help me amen x.x


second book in the inheritance trilogy, its got me hooked.

eragon's opening tomorrow. so exciting. but doubt i'll catch it so soon. christopher paolini writes well. i didnt remember eragon to be so fascinating because i read it as soon as it came out, then forgot about it, until eldest came, and the eragon the motion picture. eldest was on my table for very long until i'd picked it up and started on it recently, and i'm glad i did. it has been great so far, and it reminded me of how a good book can take you to a land far away, of elves and dwarves and humans and dragons. fantasy world. great to delve in en route to a particular destination, say aboard the bus. thus begins my looking forward to long bus rides. hahaha.

on a heavier note,

there's still much work to be done! argh!


work will be done. its all a matter of time.

but now it seems time's running out.

i need to run faster
and faster
and fastest.

and catch up with time. yeah.

with my NB 1060s. FTW!

Haha. :)



Inter-hall games

Representing my hall for inter-hall games on thursday. Yay.
And guess what am i playing?


So i have men's single, men's double and mixed doubles. And its from 9am to 10pm for both thursday and friday. I have never played so long before, at most 5 hours in school non-stop, but 13 hours =P
Maybe chinese chess too. They say that theres some china pro in my hall 0.0

"Trained" until 1am yesterday, or should i say today. Playing 4 and a half hours of pool in the morning was very tiring as well, very. My back feels as if its going to break for about a week already, and it just got worst yesterday. I cant believe they didnt allow kenneth yeo to play, i mean his birthday is like 4 days away. Their reason for not letting him play: People under 16 tends to scratch the table with the cue, blah blah blah.
So from now until 4 days later, he will suddenly know how to not scratch the table, cus the number 16th fairy will visit him and hence cast a spell of "No scratching of pool table" on him. WOW.

Its just so ridiculous, maybe just him.
Going to Malaysia from 23rd to 26th. I did my christmas shopping already, so i have no idea what i am going to do there. The beach is quite tempting.

But im still looking forward to class chalet on 20th-21st, though i cant really play anything there.
Haha, see you...
This is a must-watch. (Courtesy of matthew, your blog)
On the sound, and get some tissue paper if you need it.

Read first before watching...

deja vu.

literally literally, haha.

deja vu. intricately woven gradual buildup to a climax and resolution. great plot. good movie. ending not expected, but interesting nonetheless. the idea of the multiverse.

imagine there was millions of other yous living at the same time, doing different things, in different universes. if you could travel back in time, what would you do? what would you change? for doug carlin, he sacrificed himself, saving 543 innocent lives, plus the life of a young woman named claire kuchever, and his partner larry. and he ended up alive anyway. the idea is this - you travel back in time though some weird machine that can weave into the fabrication of space itself, giving you endless possibilities. you could go anywhere you want within the specified area, exactly four days six hours ago ++ (14.5nanoseconds), you get back, change whatever you want, supposed to end up dead because you cannot possibly see another you. imagine there are two exact images of you and you're staring yourself in a face, but there is no mirror. scary huh. similar ideas and concepts appear in The Time Machine, Minority Report, Harry Potter, and last i remember, The Prestige. things like replicating yourself, going back in time, forseeing the future. very interesting. as i was saying, its the concept of a multiverse (many parallel universes) occurring at the same time. so when you travel back in time, you alter the timeline when you do something else rather than something you did in the past at the exact same time and space. so instead of saying that you went back and rewrote the course of history, you appeared in a parallel universe, changed the sequence of events, died, but lived because the you in that alternate universe was doing something else at the point in time. very cool. but not to be tinkered with i reckon. not that technology is advanced enough. just some random thoughts.


i dont even really know what im blabbering about lol. hope it makes some sense to you readers out there. Ha.

in need of some shuteye.

deja vu.

review: This show joins the ranks of the Prestige! While the Prestige questions the issue of sacrifice and identity, Deja vu embarks on destiny and time. Destinies can be changed, with the help of a sci-fi programme that can trace back to four and a half days in time before the Algiers Dock bombing; and time is no longer linear. One can diverge and create another path in time, and when it appears you cannot change destiny, it ends up that Agent Doug has saved 500 people that day. The line between the past and present is blurred, and they are eventually intertwined. So bizzare, it rocks! Losh will fill u in on the rest of it.

Movie of the week: Deja vu, directed by Jerry Bruckheimer.


Though the sky was starless that night, she kept looking up and smiling. She tried to guess the airline of every plane that flew above, and occasionally she would run after it, reaching her hand out, as if she could touch the plane. There was a bliss in running after the moving bright light of the plane; there was a sense of joy as she watched the plane's lights cast a moonlight reflection on the seawater. The endless road was in front of her, lit up by streetlamps that cast gloomy shadows with their white, lonesome light. But even the endless road made her glad - she loved running with no aim and no end. She liked the rhythmic beat her feet were making on the ground. She felt like she could keep going on forever.

The starts and ends have already been predestined. Maybe the process is what it's about.

Sunday, December 10, 2006

despite my failures and shortcomings, God is faithful

Thank you God, for the other rainbow.

Help me to honour you in what i do.

It rained twice today...

Its so true that nothing in the world lasts forever, absolutely nothing.
How i wish theres a count-down timer on everything, so i can know at exactly what time which items will be lost/who will be leaving me...

*Okay, not a very nice idea, imagine yourself seeing the timer for "earth" and it says 5 more minutes. GG*

Celebrated my grandmother's birthday yesterday with nice food, and a very nice cake =P
I will be teaching some guy theory and violin. This isnt random (unlike my first few sentences), but he wants me to teach him. And i get to name my price! FunKEY

Well its the experience that im interested in after all.
And it will be a "studies-filled" december. Violin teacher left for Macau and then for Shanghai, and he told me to play to do the last few of Kreutzer - DOUBLE-STOPS!
I dont hate it, but i seriously need a lot of time to complete one cus its hard...

Sigh, should have done this many years ago. Cant believe my basics were so weak.



II Peter 1:3-8

According as his divine power hath given unto us all things that pertain unto life and godliness, through the knowledge of him that hath called us to glory and virtue: Whereby are given unto us exceeding great and precious promises: that by these ye might be partakers of the divine nature, having escaped the corruption that is in the world through lust. And beside this, giving all diligence, add to your faith virtue; and to virtue, knowledge; And to knowledge, temperance; and to temperance, patience; and to patience, godliness; And to godliness, brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness, charity. For if these things be in you, and abound, they make you that ye shall neither be barren nor unfruitful in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.

We ain't got anything to worry about as Christians, we have everything pertaining to life and God.

And He has blessed us with faith, virtue, knowledge, temperance, patience, godliness, kindness and charity. We all have it in us - He has placed it there. Now it is up to us to find it, and show it.

It's already there; we have everything.

Virtue comes before knowledge. Think about it.

Saturday, December 09, 2006

The fears of the great maestro Bruno Walter have come true. Music has changed over the years. Why doesn't pop, rock or any other form of contemporary music appeal to me? Most (and i say most, not all) music nowadays is excessive and shallow. The difference between art and entertainment is clearly seen. The modern society has reduced music to the level of entertainment. Nice tunes and moving lyrics in pop songs appeal to our senses. They label classical music as boring, or a turn off, unable to appreciate its subtleties and layered meanings, choosing instead to indulge in the simplest of ear-pleasing entertainment, songs with accessible (and usually similar) tunes, with shallow, blunt (and again often overused in thousands of other songs) messages for lyrics. Listeners go for extreme emotion to satisfy their own needs, and to draw parallels between the lyrics and themselves. Art music, ont he other hand, is less about the self, and more about the one who wrote it. In fact, the writers of moving lyrics and (sometimes) good tunes usually pass unnoticed, whilst the millionaire star on stage (who just happened to be born with a good voice) is worshipped.

Woe to this generation, who craves simple indulgence and leaves it as that.

What a pity.

Sticking to the composer's intention does make exploring a work more exciting. After all, tempo markings and dynamics arent some arbitrary thing. Knowing this allows us to enter the minds of those great masters, to hear what the heared in their heads.

I think i've become an avid score collector too. Nowadays theres so just so many things you hear in recordings that werent actually in the score.

why the elite envy?

It all boils down to the human quickness to judge, doesn't it.

What are we to the rest of the population? We're arrogant, bossy, ungrateful and everything along those lines. We're selfish, and we look down on them. But before we make further judgement, we should ask ourselves: why do we appear this way? I use the word 'we' not just because there shouldn't be the segregation of 'we' and 'them', but that all of us, whether elite or not, should question ourselves this. We all have a part to play, we all need to take some blame.

Years back, when I transferred from a neighbourhood school to an elite school, the transition was fairly painless; there didn't seem to be much of a difference between primary four kids from the neighbourhood and primary five ones from an elite school. Well, there was the income gap and the bigger houses, but that didn't matter to me - they treated me all the same.

But back then, I was young, and probably less knowledgeable.

It's quite strange that as we get older and know more about the world, our tendency towards hostility and strife increases. Somehow, as I continued my secondary and tertiary education in elite schools, the disparity between my childhood friends and myself became iminent. At a recent primary school gathering, I realised we spoke differently and had different interests. But I took the effort to understand them, and eventually the ice broke.

I cannot trace the origin of the disparity - it could be the financial gap, meritocracy, or even the book that we got after our PSLE that listed all the schools and their reputations. However, I can see that we all have a part to play in this hostility. I, as an elite, must confess my weakness. I confess that I do take my position for granted sometimes, and I do have some difficulty identifying with the common woes of a student in a neighbourhood school. Readers out there who belong to neighbourhood schools may also have been viewed as being sour grapes. But is this entirely our own doing? It seems that both classes of society have become exclusive primarily because there is hardly any chance for both of them to interact. Of course, it will be hard to initiate that - both would probably give each other a cold shoulder - but if we do not take the first step it will get worse. Besides, the reason for the cold shoulder (and the amounting strife) is the mutual lack of understanding, and the mutual lack of patience to make the effort.

After many years of education, I must say I'm still none the wiser, regarding this issue. Maybe it is timely to put aside all judgement, and interact with each other as humans, with no labels attached.

Friday, December 08, 2006


I dont really do quizzes, but i must say this is quite accurate =P

Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

Happy birthday wilford

Im just glad that you were alright.
I dont see why human beings want to make the word "trust" so complicated by adding betrayal and backstabbing to it. I chose not to believe it, and for every incident that happened, I chose not to go deeper. Somehow i realised im too easily deceived by the things that are going around me. Is there really a need to go through the process of testing before coming to a conclusion that you can be trusted?

Well i chose not to, and im not willing to accept the fact that you actually did this to me. Maybe im wrong, and this is the only time i wish that im at fault. Really...

Yet i must agree "secrets" are very hard to keep, and theres always a hundred and one million reasons to reveal it compared to the few that keeps the mouth tightly sealed. Can the word friendship overpowers the hundred and one million reason, i certainly think so.

No wonder they say the world is a complicated place to live in. Having very close friends is a nice thing to have, especially when I need them. Having a lot of friends too. But the inability to tell which one is really nice to you from those that want to take advantage of you by being nice to you is disastrous. At least i still have the number to fall back on, rather than crumbling down.

So with that said, perhaps a dog is a man's best friend, as they dont leak secrets out. As for me, i can always depend on my diary =P

(please note that its a he that im referring to above)
I can finally run again, so there shall be morning and evening jogs with my brother round the campus. Yay, yet i still cannot play soccer, not the kind where you push yourself in every game. I dont think im fit for that.

I cant believe someone actually said im deprived.. haha, but im happy with it. Not like some travel freak who flies around the globe like some migratory bird ( dont kill me for saying this).
Its time i show you the power of CHINA!! Look at them in Doha games, and you will realise how pathetic the rest of us are. Wee, lets support the chinese!
Anyway happy birthday wilford, 13 years old leh. Must be more "Man", but dont think about relationship.. haha, i know you have, dont deny.. Very soon you will understand a lot of things in life, you are young and have not experienced the true power of the force ( o.o star wars).
Just have fun, its once in a lifetime having a 13th birthday =P

And learn how to use sentences in msn, rather than word by word and pressing enter so many times. thats your birthday goal


I know how it feels, when your friends desert you, and strangers are everywhere.

But do not fret! God is there.

And you might say, He's just one person.

But He's not! He's everywhere; He is the whole universe.


I have a new dog in my house now, and sunshine's her name. She's a very very fluffy pomperanian that scurries after my every step i make. She's so rectangular too, like a tissue box. She's so cute, she's making kobe jealous.

But don't worry kobe we still love you.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

reliving childhood.

so long have i forgotten the wonders of channel 8 drama serials, the anticipation that builds after every episode, the mushy love scenes, the quirky and cool actors, the corny yet interesting storyline. haha. amazes me. kudos to all the hard work the actors and actresses have put in to entertain the Singaporean households.

that aside, i have been slacking. finally took up another sitting of the tok essay, which seems so daunting. it seems like the 1600 mark is so near yet so far. i seem to not have enough content. or maybe its just that my thoughts are not as organised as i think it used to be. maybe i'm just lazy. cant wait to start on EE. the pressures. when you hear people finishing the 4000 word essays with a month of holidays to spare, its time to push yourself to get started, and perhaps with the glint of hope that you might just finish a first draft before school reopens. hopefully.

slept in the afternoon and thus i will experience a bout of insomnia later. heh.

cant imagine i sat in front of the tube for almost 2 hours today. haha. channel 8. chinese pwns you.

alright to all the people doing work, glhf!

time to get into practising mode again. been neglecting my instruments these past few days. heh.

5th day of misery.


Watched flags of our father today. Its a nice movie i must say, not really a war film, and it has a nice storyline. Well its nc16 for a reason, cus some parts are seriously very bloody with intestines all over, but that aside, its quite sad. The music is good too =P

Vivo city is really lousy, all the designers shop. Even the candy, chocolate shop sells stuff at 100+ dollars =.=
The food is lousy there too..
The only reason i see in going to vivo is to look across at the merlion, bridge linking sentosa to the main island and the cable cars. Its quite a nice view. Maybe joining the kids in the pool would be a great idea too =P
Met with my primary school friends on monday, some really changed a lot in such a short time. All of them say i look the same, so who says acs will change the image of a person =P
Its great to see them again, and i have no idea when's the next time we will meet, since they will have sec school gathering rather than primary school one. Sigh
And we sorted out the library on tues, firstly by genre then by alphabetical order of the composers. Now its super nice, and the store room looks great now with the cello and double bass rack.
Thats all, its so boring when my brother and sister goes overseas at the same time.

Fly away, everyone

“When will you be home?” she asks
as we watch the planes take off
We both know we have no clear answer
to where my dreams may lead

She’s watched me as i crawled and stumbled
As a child, she was my world
And now to let me go,
I know she bleeds
and yet she says to me

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I’ll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know
we’ll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

Autumn leaves fell into spring time
and silver-painted hair
Daddy called one evening saying
“We need you. Please come back”
When I saw her laying in her bed
Fragile as a child
Pale just like an angel taking flight
I held her as I cried

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I’ll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know
we’ll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

Just a tribute to all those flying off to some far-flung place to forget their troubles for awhile. And all those staying in Singapore, be content.





Cut short and ended.

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

the joy of singing.

what if.

had a lot of fun today singing with the choir. haha. yay bass section rocks. =)

cant wait for christmas. but when it comes its going to go by in the blink of an eye, like every other event, every other holiday, every other trip.

in the meantime, work awaits.

the walton viola concerto is such a powerful work. i think it sits alongside the other great 20th century string concertos like the shostakovich, stravinsky and berg violin concertos.



If ye then be risen with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ sitteth on the right hand of God. Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth.

Colossians 3:1-2 KJV

Sunday, December 03, 2006

And another day

Went shopping after violin lesson, and the last time i did shopping with my parents was about a month ago.

And i saw 2 kids fighting over a synthesizer, trying out the different modes and playing simple tunes like over the rainbow and london bridge is falling down. They got excited after one of them played in thirds, so they went about trying out different intervals.

It sort of reminded me the time when i started first bought the piano...
I dont think that those things mentioned above will be anything close to fascinating to you, but its so true that all of us started out this way.

Going back to my violin lesson, i have 5 new studies to do this week. On spiccato, octaves, double stops, random bowing and the last one on positions. I dont really need to learn all by next week, thats what he said, but it will be nice if i can get at least 80% of all. And since he's leaving next week to Macau, he let me choose a concerto to learn. December is definitely a nice time to brush up on everything.

I treated my parents to ice cream with my 50 bucks from the wedding while shopping. Anderson ice cream, swensons and hagan daz. Dont worry deb, i kept my promise =P there's still some money left. haha
Reflecting upon what my brother said before leaving for china, everything became so clear after i restringed my violin.
He complained of not getting his proper gear for training, which i sort of agreed with him.
One set of strings cost around 70 dollars, and i change every one month or so.
And one lesson per week is 40 dollars, plus all the violin necessities, maybe an extra 20 per month
Then theres this issue about me practising violin for 5 hours a day (average) and he cant play he's bridge online for 5 hours. He's in RJ bridge club and the only way to improve is by experience, just like everything else.
But the biggest problem with this is that my parents think that bridge = computer games, and 5 hours a day is too much. If i can practise 5 hours a day, why he cant play bridge for 5 hours since playing = practising.

As usual i decide not to interfere but listen,
why cant i have enough courage ( or some other word to replace this, guts/integrity..) to do whats right..

Saturday, December 02, 2006

On wings of songs

I cant believe it, haha.

First time attending a christian wedding and i performed in it, weehee.
Well, it wasnt that bad afterall (referring to our playing). The special item was the one that i didnt like, since everyone was looking at us, and it was the favourite song of dont know who. AND THE ORIGINAL KEY HAS 4 we ask chris to transpose it to C major =P

but i started my very first note on an E flat =.=
and i got lost somewhere in the middle... thats why its a very bad idea to get the score 10 mins before the actual thing, and make your sightreading very challenging.

Canon in D and arrival of queen sheeba was great, potential rushing piece and we didnt. HAHA, and we improvised some parts while playing. Hymns were fine.

The groom held the wrong hand when giving the bride the ring...
And he kissed her on the cheeks only, so shy. Well i wanted to play the piece we played at HAVEN when Julian got shot by the Japanese =P

I like playing in quartets, well at least i dont freak out like i used to. My bow doesnt shake now.

And chung told me, 14 years later...
The scheduling is just killing me, maybe you all should take a look at it when i send it out. Basically we never had a concert in March before, and now we have that plus SYF, so do expect something you have never expected before.

Reading session was the highlight of the week though. Dvorak 9th is indeed a super fun piece, apart from the double sided printing which screwed up our counting. A second violin has nice melody, better than beethoven 5th where we played the melody only ONCE. And i must admit the first violin was sort of too strong, 13 players - mostly pros...

Cant wait for next year to start,

Friday, December 01, 2006

forbidden desires.

Up till now, she regretted not stepping into the audition room.

The production was long over, and all the hype about it had already died down. But whenever she saw any of the cast members along the class corridor, jealousy grew in her heart, like a contagious disease. I could easily be one of them, she thought. She imagined herself in front of the judges, impressing them with her singing. She imagined herself standing on the stage, taking her time to say her important lines to the hundreds in the audience. She could almost savour the immense satisfaction as the audience clung on to every word she spoke and every syllable she sang. She could almost feel the power of the fame in her veins; and with that, she thought, she'd be invincible.

Suddenly, she was brought back to the four walls of the classroom. As much as she wanted it, she couldn't have it - she was almost a nobody; she was just another girl walking down the corridor, carrying a pile of books in front of her, afraid to look up at anyone. It wasn't like her to crave for attention, everyone thought, since she didn't seem to seek it at all. But she knew the truth. She knew that deep inside, she couldn't escape the desire.

It wasn't that she didn't try to suppress it and to get rid of it - she did; and she fought hard. But everyone wanted to be a star. Even she craved to be one herself, even though she knew it was wrong.

Everyone wants to be on top of it all. But the truly victorious are those who are willing to give up their place to others.

i feel left behind.

everyones moving on,
everyone but me.