emusic.com is good stuff

heres what I got in 50 free downloads during the 2 week trial period (and i do intend to pay for a proper subscription after that):

• Gorecki: Symphony No.3 "Symphony of Sorrowful Songs"- Antoni Wit, Polish Radio National Symphony Orchestra
• Glinka: Viola Sonata in D minor - Nobuko Imai, Roger Pontinen
• Glass: Symphony No.4 "Heroes" - Marin Alsop, Bournemouth Symphony Orchestra
• Rawsthorne: Symphony No.3 - David Lloyd-Jones, Bournemouth Symphony Orchestra
• Martinu: Double Concerto for 2 String Orchestras, piano and timpani - James DePriest, Malmo Symphony Orchestra
• Piston, Harbison and Alder Viola Concertos - Randolphe Kelly, Latvian National Symphony Orchestra, Aleksandrs Vilumanis
• Aho: Symphonic Dances, Symphony No.11 - Lahti Symphony Orchestra, Osmo Vanska
• Arnold: Four Scottish Dances, Op.59 - Malcolm Arnold, London Philharmonic Orchestra
• Saint-Saens: Violin Concerto No.3 in B minor, Op.61 - Vadim Brodsky, Polish Radio National Symphony Orchestra, Andrzej Straszynski

yep. overdose of deep modern stuff. now back to some nice simple uncomplicated bach. or is it?

Rehearsals have been tiring. Gabriel Ng pwns all.

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I really need some of God somewhere.

If I were a Dead Russian Composer, I would be Sergei Rakhmaninov. Melancholy Who would you be? Dead Russian Composer Personality Test

I treasured those few precious moments
In the twilight,
Illuminated by the glow of the screen.

The closeness i miss so much,
That closeness i can no longer have.

But today
My rêveries and passions
Shall be wrapped up and stored away
Someplace.

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Playing with the WAYO was exhilarating. Berlioz's Symphonie Fantastique definitely lives up to its name. Lots of faking here and there especially in Hindemith's Symphonic Metamorphoses on Themes by Weber but overall the music making was incredible. Hosts were Sam Parry and parents Geoff and Kay Parry. Many thanks to them for being great hosts and a great family to be with! They're a bunch of people I will miss very much and I hope our paths cross again some day.

yep so that concludes the peak of my musical experience so far!

time to sleep.

to be totally crushed,

and then to go on and carry someone else's burdens.

Christ's death on the cross must have really sucked big time.

alone. so very very alone.

and afraid.

I shall take back what i said in my post on the 2nd of july 2007. But it shall remain there as a testament to my selfishness and rashness.

"But its so unfair!", I had complained to Him.

And he said,

"But those who came later were not pleased with the successor. This too is meaningless, a chasing after the wind." - Ecclesiastes 4:16b. (NIV)

Jesus, Lover of my soul.
Jesus I will never let you go.
You've taken me from the miry clay
You set my feet upon the Rock
And now I know.

I love You, I need You
Though my world may fall
I'll never let you go.
My saviour, my closest friend
I will worship you until the very end.

i think i'm losing my mind

you knew.

go away.

i thought you cared.

you don't.

i've been controlling myself for a long time.

you on the other hand, have been running wild and pushing my limits. now i break again.


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i wish things were different.