and this too!

http://kevan.org/nohari?name=oli_tan

this is quite cool:

http://kevan.org/johari?name=oli_tan

sort of like self-evaluation

I watched as you disembarked. It was unbelievably tv drama-like.

It troubled me, how things tended to repeat themselves.

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Oh Lord help me with my unbelief.

Give me more faith to trust in You and Your ways.

For you are an awesome God!

Have mercy on me.

i had failed to grasp the ideas the adagietto and finale of mahler's 5th presented.

maybe i was just blind to the good things around me

such that all i heard

was the hopelessness in the funeral march
the tempest of the sturmisch movement
the pretentiousness of the scherzo

but amidst all this there is joy.
if we try to reach it.

maybe you're right.

i'm being so damn stupid

backache =(

Today i finally understood the meaning of these two verses...

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and He will direct your paths.

Seek ye first the Kingdom of God and all its righteousness and all these things will be added unto you.

He is the Lord of all things, including your IOC, and he wants to bless you with good results as long as you know why. Don't pray for something so that you might use it for selfish purposes, but rather pray according to His will. Above all trust in Him and DO NOT WORRY

=)

just the other day,

i tried to start a conversation.

it was rather awkward...

but you went away without saying much.

and i realised you were gone forever.

by Your strength alone Lord...

take control.

keep me from harm so that i may be free from pain

mahler's symphony no.5 is the most insane genius shit in the world.

oh mann... i'm reeling from the experience of listening to the whole thing from start to end with a score in front of me.

65 minutes of insane shit.

mind-blowing music.

Happy national day!

haha i think the one reason why people dont sing the national anthem in the morning is not because we cant give a damn about our nation but because it is in a horrible key.

i shall be what you want me to be.

your friendship i treasure more than other 'lesser' things.

=)

After listening to Debussy's piano music (for the first time due to personal prejudices against the piano), I shall take back to some extent what i said about pianos being inferior to other more advanced modes of music making such as the orchestra.

The writing of piano music is an art in itself, something that i cannot grasp fully... how the use of a notes of a single unchangeable tone colour, incapable of the subtle nuances and dynamic flexibilities of string and wind instruments, can be strung together in long lines which make sense.

its like walking knowingly into a booby-trapped room in which the walls are high and slippery and begin to move towards each other crushing anyone in between. Both walls. Moving faster than i thought they would.

not allowed to hope.

nope.

not allowed.

WHY

DAMMIT

WHY

and so it ends...

4 years in the acs orchestra, 2 years of insane pioneer work in the acphil.

lets be happy we all contributed to something big. something worth remembering.

and lets hope that this something will be brought to new heights by others to come!

God bless you all, acphil.

we'll be back! =)

and thus http://ngeeee.blogspot.com returns to the one who started it.

alone once again.