apologies.

On a depressing note, things that were said today made me realise that i have alot to be sorry for.

1) i'm sorry for not being absolutely honest with my parents.
2) i'm sorry for not appreciating my elder brother, and not looking after my younger brother well.
3) i'm sorry for offending many of my friends, consciously or subconsciously.
4) i'm sorry for offending my enemies.
5) i'm sorry for being biased towards others at times.
6) i'm sorry for using the wrong language on the wrong occasions.
7) i'm sorry for not acting my age sometimes.
8) i'm sorry if i angered anyone when i laugh uncontrollably. Honestly speaking, i don't think everyone appreciates me laughing. i'm sure some of u find it annoying and childish. And i am truly sorry.
9) i'm sorry that i can't live up to expectations sometimes.
10) i'm sorry that i whacked oli today. Sorry oli!
11) [to mr chan] i'm sorry about the x-men saga..we should have been more formal in the first place. We shouldnt have forgotten tt u are, after all, our conductor, so we shouldnt have been over-friendly in a sense. We shouldnt have been childish as well.
12) i'm sorry for not setting a good example to the juniors.
13) i'm sorry for daoing anyone.
12) i'm sorry that i always want things my way, and get angered when i don't.
13) i'm sorry for being stubborn.
14) i'm sorry for annoying anyone, intentionally or not.
15) i'm sorry to God, because i have let Him down. But God always forgives, and i'm sorry i didnt appreciate this earlier and took it for granted.

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On a lighter note, i have doubts about growing up. about letting go of the x-men saga. and the ngee thing. and all the insane stuff. Cos i cant imagine what would school / chamber be like without them. It just adds the extra mile - the extra laughter, the extra sense of belonging. The worst fear of growing up is being boring.

But its something we all have to do right? Maybe it won't be boring. After all, ur friends grow up with you.

:)

So i'm sorry. But i'll try.